Most times it’s not how fast you run.

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The mental, self-flagellation I put myself through when I struggle with my writing is just as torturous as walking a physical gauntlet.

In olden days the Royal Navy had a rather nasty form of corporal punishment known as walking the gauntlet. An offender of a minor offense was stripped at the waist and forced to walk along a channel formed by his fellow sailors as they whipped the man with knittles — long cords of leather and rope knotted at the end.

You see, dropping to your knees is never a good thing. At least while you’re moving you have a small advantage of being difficult to hit.

I don’t know how the hell it happens. I mean, it’s not like I expect it to happen, and I sure as hell don’t understand why it happens, but damn folks, it’s fucking painful. The mental, self-flagellation I put myself through when I struggle with my writing is just as torturous as walking a physical gauntlet.

All of us, are forced to walk the gauntlet from time to time. Hell, for some of us it’s week to week or even worse, day to day.

There was a time or two when I seriously thought about not getting back up, but I somehow did and started walking again. My self induced mental assaults didn’t lessen, but I guess I somehow became numb to the pain. I knew I was kicking the shit out of myself, but I just didn’t feel it anymore.

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A published author enjoying married Texas bliss. Dog person living with cats. A writer of Henry James' stories. Featured In MuckRack. Top Writer In Fiction.

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